Has it been that long since I last wrote? My last entry was about my results with UOL!
Last night as I was youtubing "the vampire diaries" I suddenly remembered I have a blog. So here I am, three years later, very much alive and well.
Funny how things have come full circle. All those years and years of talking about finding a place of our own to call home, and here we are very much away and very much separated. I always thought as a couple we were very very lucky, no matter what life has thrown our way, we've managed to work around it and find ourselves in a better place. And I am grateful. Well nothing's changed, we're still finding ourselves a happier place in a different way. All for the better of us.
I'm full from a huge plate of pattaya. I'm feeling a little woozy. I think I'll watch some TV and go to bed.
12:31 AM
99 strings of trigger happy
these kinda things attract me, gushing over each other, romantic dinner dates, luxurious gifts, slow dancing, love songs, flowers. if those things has never been appealing to you, that's a shame. because i love being immersed in love. i love knowing another person is planning these things and thinking about me while planning them.
i am most definately a romantic.
12:10 AM
99 strings of trigger happy
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Remember this was just a few weeks ago. Look at us now! Oh I am so in love with this photo of us. It just oozes with happiness. I wish I can bottle us up and keep us like this forever. It makes me wonder, how come you never thought of this day when you questioned me "when was the last time we went out happy and not end up fighting?" Your answer to me was never. But all that was swirling around in my head was this picture and was this day.
Today I made a choice secretly. The pain of a broken heart will continue to present itself on and off for the rest of your life. But that's why you need to start healing. It's your own life and you have a choice or not you want to feel indifferent today or enthusiastic tomorrow. There are so many who loves you and they want you to love yourself, again too. I know this sounds really cheesy but I wish I can be there for anyone who feels the way I do. When or if I make it out of this, I will be there to listen to anyone who needs someone to listen to them.
On a lighter note, Harry Potter SO FUCKING SOON!! I need to find someone who would enjoy staying in with me, but it honestly feels like there is NOBODY around me. Maybe i just need to distance myself and try to find new people. It's been awhile since I got that pounding heart feeling.
1:24 AM
99 strings of trigger happy
dance dance
I love beautiful things. Nature, landscapes, people, buildings, and jewellery. I love travelling, going out, sitting in cafes,
house gatherings, parties, dining out, musicals, concerts, theatre, live bands.
At the same, if you can sit with me to read all day. clad in our pjs and eating straight out from the cerealbox.
I think i would find nothing more satisfying than that.
in addition to that. teach me how to cook like Jamie Oliver.
oh yes if you smell reeeally good,
we can run and meet the world.
or maybe drive all around, everywhere and anywhere in a camper van.
I think that would be really cool.
