The usual. Did sunday school. I hoofed over to church with mum early morning.

Church has always been a lovely place since i sorta grew up in sunday school as well. but church has small classrooms. Small children and small spaces? Disasters befall on us teachers without fail as always. But today, my boys surprised me.

They were all so well behaved. like little angels.

Mel, remember handsome Joshua? i made him narrate a story today. I can't say he enjoyed it. He participated and followed instructions when told to, without kicking up a fuss. Joshua's not like any p2 kid. He plays soccer with his friend below his condo till 6 am in the morning. With no parents watching over their backs. He's been to Disneyworld and tells his teacher Mae that Disneyland in L.A is boring. And then today, he demanded us to bring him and a few others out to watch open season.

J: "If you want to bring me go watch open season, must be first week of holiday. cos I'm going Japan"

Somenonimportantkid: " So you going Japan Disneyland?"

J: "No, I'm just going Japan just to eat sashimi only"

J "I went to DisneyWorld before already"

I happily went "Me too! I went to the one in L.A"

"DisneyLand is not even DisneyWorld" He growled and waved his hand in my face. "DisneyWorld so Big, DisneyLand so boring"

I squeaked, "erm Ok..."

After one year, I am still so very infatuated with him. So infatuated i wish i could be 8 too. or that i could stay at this age till he turns 21. A boy that travels oh so often! I like.

He's just so intelligent. At least for an 8 year old. And for one i cannot stand stupidity.

Joshua's mischievious, but ain't naughty. You know how some kids can be irritatingly naughty. Like Clarence. Omgawd. He's a terror! He went to squeezed another boy's balls like really hard. And that boy came over to me and started sobbing. How to handle things like that you tell me?!!?!!!

I went to tell that Clarence off. And you know what? That little bugger insisted Bryant Wang instigated him to do it. So i had to questioned Bryant as well. I gave up. Cause fingers started pointing everywhere. Handed them over to Elsie.

The boys are moving up to p3 next year. Why are they growing up so fast!


Note to self: I need more "Joshuas" in the house or I'm going cry.

this is so entertaining. Gabriel showed it me a few days back and i couldnt stop laughing.

you know, if only school was this fun.

It's true, as you grow older, you realise your real friends only boil down to a very select few.

wenling, i'm just glad that after so long, we still always have something to talk about, something to catch up on, and that we never judge nor blindly agree. I appreciate honesty in friends.

Friends. So important, yet they come and go so easily. It's like, why bother with those who treat you bad? I know who I have, and I trust them. I'm thankful for that. My tolerance for a lot of people is increasing, but my aptitude for caring and bothering decreasing...cause most don't matter. Childish fucks can just get lost seriously.

i guess, work's a nice place to be at now because jarrod and janice are like close friends. we talk about everything. talk about boys, girls, life, work, friends. blah blah blah blah blah.

you know, just being with jarrod and janice makes me wanna fall in love. they want to how sweet? damn sweet lah. it's how comfortable they are being around each other. knowing what each other is thinking and their behaviour even without asking. like telepathy right?? they are so interesting lah. and funny.

oh yes. i met this person that i havent met for the longest time. was busy walking all over the store, and from the side of my eye i saw this familiar figure staring and grinning at me. Nelson Tan! i havent seen him like for how long? for ages. still so nice, still so sayang me. i miss talking to him. so tonight, i was having like a verbal diarroeah. i went on and on and on and on and on. i didn't even let him have the chance to butt in lah.

N: "why talk so much tonight huh?"

because i miss you lah!

on another note. endli's going on a trip. a short trip to bintan. with the fishes. she's always doing such horrible things to me lah. just to name one. she left me all alone during a particular steamboat session with a group of people i hardly know. i went down just to accompany you ok. ingrate.wanna play revenge with me right? for being late. think i don't know only.

i want to cry.

with such a situation at hand, are you sure you wanna leave me all alone for ibm class? can you don't do this to me or not. can you not go!

Oh i wish you were here, why aren't you aware of that, because you are one of those i will truly love for life.






i'm fine baby, how are you?

adventure jamboree.

sounds very cool huh.

SIM odac is in charge of hosting the event this year. from game planning,to logistics, right down to fornightly meetings, i'm involved. and proud to say i'm very commited to it as well.

don't be surprised meltan, because i...miss Mae Sia is part of the commitee.

well, just yesterday me and wenling, together with our team recced sentosa for locations to hold our games. discussion of various games lasted all the way till 11.

then today, we met up with the odac people again for a steamboat session.

I would say, it wasn't as bad as i thought it would.

The seniors (who are actually in fact my batch) make the effort to make us feel at ease, to try their best to include us in their conversations. It was really heartwarming to see people going the extra mile for you. U know they see each other so often it is no wonder everyone is so close. The bond is tight but there's still space for new friends to fit into the circle. The atmosphere is ever so welcoming. That's what makes me wanna stay on and go for all the trips they are gonna organise.

Meltan. before you are here in hazey island singapore on the 16th. i would have been to mount ophir and back.

I really cant wait for you to come back home. Best friend! come home and tell me stories.




by the way have you played reversi before?

ok hit it!



haha. so cute.

K: "you really should stop blowing bubbles on land and come down
into the water for some real action lah".

M: "kenneth, why the website show photos of the divers only!!!"

M: "why no marine life at all?"

K: "walau, wanna see marine life, go diving!! see what photo"

Kenneth is talking sense. For once. and for once, i am actually agreeing with him. But mind you kenneth, not everyone has the privilege of getting his open water liscense at the age of 17 and his DM at 20 ok.

and stop tempting me to squeeze myself into the next diving trip. which is like what. next weekend? my mum will get a heart attack, first bangkok, now this??? no way. It's nearing monsoon season at that time anyway. i won't be enjoying myself like i would if that's the case right? Feb07 would probably be a better time, ample time to go for lessons, lotsa and lotsa warm yellow sunshine and a longer period to work my way to a nicer body. before hitting those waves.


*sigh*

Self comforting never felt that good.

i get tempted to spit your face whenever i hear about the comments you make on every single individual you deem friend, about how enthusiastic you are on picking up a new skill, about the principles supposedly born in you.

you think you play the game very well huh?

guess what?

everyone's laughing at you.

I'm going public.

Meltan. I dunno why you can't tag. But i'm very tired just fiddling around with it. So, i shall do it tomorrow.

You know what?

I saw Tay Ping Hui at work yesterday!! I was doing the usual stuff, standing at the cashier joking and crapping around with this regular. and a group of people came by. so i gave a quick look and i saw Jeff Wang. Not much of a good impression, i continued talking to my customer. I don't know why but i stole second glance at them and guess who was walking right past my cashier counter. No prizes for getting it right. It's Tay Ping Hui. He gave me a smile and that totally made my day i tell you.

You know how difficult it is or not? To keep a straight face? I wanted to so badly flash him back a megawatt smile. I was torn between greeting him with a chirpy good morning and pretending like it's no biggie. I chose the latter. I got back to doing what i do best. playing it cool. way too cool.

Alittle taken aback. i kept quiet for a few seconds.

And after that,



I couldn't stop harping about it. So me and janice just bummed around the store and talked about our celebrity encounters. She did mass comm in NP, She wrote for a fashion magazine, She was doing all that cool stuff before taking a break and coming to Gloria Jeans. So of course her encounters are impressive!

Up till now, i can't help but gush about how good he looks. His nice physique. His.... did i look too grouchy? It was 9am early morning. Why didn't he stop by for coffee?

Mae! get a grip.


Meltan, Envy boh?

Oh, how i love my work.

eluxury says the LV is currently out of stock.


It was only 5 minutes.

Not so fun fact: Asthma relapsed

Was on my way to get the usual curry puff when my chest tightened out of a sudden. and i couldn't even breathe after that. seriously, i know panicking and crying will just make breathing even more difficult. but i can't help it! i haven't suffered any attacks since the age of 13. In fact, even hardly before that.

Last checked, the PSI was 150. because the wind directions has changed against Singapore's favour. The air smells foul every morning when i leave the house at 6 for work and the sky's gloomy all day. It's not a nice hazey feeling. It's the kinda haze that makes your eyes itch the whole day, that makes you feel as though you are choking on burning incense, that kind that makes the whole environment so stuffy and humid. that kind that induces puke. yuck. that nauseating feeling.

Fun Fact: BKK? Rock'on

I'm flying to Bangkok in exactly a week's time! Together with friends i've known for 8 years. 8 years and still counting. Yessa! I can't wait to shop. I've already set an extra duffle bag aside for all the shopping. But now i think i need one more. I can already imagine the 3 of us screaming "walau so cheap ar! Buy lar!" This is so exciting. Shopping keeps the energy level and the endorphine level up up up. Those happy hormones. That nice adrenaline rush. Just thinking of it gets me high.

Not so Fun Fact: Where's Mel?

Best friend Meltan won't be going on this trip with us. Yes, we are leaving without you.
But i promise this is the only trip you are gonna miss cos we've got a whole life time to travel the world together.

Come on babe. Admit this. we are gonna be old grannies together. Botoxed. Alright. now hush hush about this.

Damn Random:

As i'm finishing up this entry, Andre was showing me this online webbie called the eluxury. This LV wallet. omgawd. it's a whopping 920bucks. This DKNY shoes. Tsk. No money for such extravagance.

It's probably true i used to blog about the most depressing thoughts but lately, i think being happy is much easier.

Just now, as the whole family bond and mingled together, it suddenly dawned onto me that everyone has started to speak in a different manner. The cousins that i used to run around in underwear with, can actually hold proper conversations that lasted for hours with that particular family friend. The baby boy who usually comes to me for hugs and kisses, now shys away.

Over the table, i silently watched my grandma have her dinner. Looking at her really breaks my heart. The way she handled her food and hovered around the buffet area. The way she struggled towards all her little grandchildren, making sure everyone of us had more than enough to eat. And then i saw grandpa look at her with a smile, passing over a stick of cigarette so that they both can take a break from all the hustle.

At that moment, i knew they have gone full cycle. Being the eldest grandchild, i was there to witness them enter their greying phase. And now, i'm afraid. I'm afraid to lose anyone. again. I don't wanna feel that sense of regret again. I don't wanna feel that i haven't done enough. I don't wanna feel like i didn't cherish what i had. I'm afraid of grandma growing any older. I wanna be there all the way. Just like how she, like a mother has been there for me.

I hope i will be able to do the same for my parents and for her. To hold their hands like they used to hold mine. To teach them words they taught me when they have forgotten. To never be too many steps behind just in case they fall. To share with them the love they have given me. unconditionally.