i wish i had the courage to tell you so many things, like, you make me want to be a better person,or that if i had to make a choice from the start, it wouldn't be that hard,because i know i'd definitely choose you all over again.

i kept telling everyone the past is gone, but me, i'm really scared. i'm scared of everything. i'm scared of what i saw, i'm scared of what i did, of who i am, and most of all i'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way i feel when i'm with you.

that being said, this season, i pray my child-like faith will unceasingly carry me through all odds.


i think God is really amazing. if not for him, i wouldn't be where i am now. everything i have experienced with God has made me stronger and has moulded me into who i am today. i'm sure i have many more fights ahead of me, and still much to learn and discover.

i'm not sure how it happened. i woke up this morning and *DING* it felt like someone gave me an injection of happy drugs and a million dollars. the sundayschool kids have been fantastic these last few weeks. The weather sparkling. stuff happening in church. i think it's because church has been taking my mind off caleb and enriching my life. i'm feeling sooOOOooo good. easter party coming right up. this year, my little cousins are all gonna be there. and therefore makes this easter extremely special!






i could be happy with you. i am happy with just you. but yes i must remember to count my blessings.